I have a complicated and confusing relationship with journaling and with generally talking about my feelings and "disclosing" aspects of my inner experience. This is an exercise in trying to work that out a little bit. These pages are unedited because I am trying to be more honest with myself about who I really am. Some of the entries here may have sections that don't make much (or any) sense. Don't worry too much about it.

Trigger warning for anything and everything. As is probably obvious from the rest of my site, I struggle with severe mental health issues, many of which concern internal problems related to sex, drugs, and violence/death, and all of which stem from trauma. Any of these topics may show up in this journal in any form. I also have a difficult relationship with the topic of suicide and I may occasionally discuss having suicidal thoughts. Be mindful if you decide to read these pages. I am not responsible for your emotional and/or physical well-being.

I have it on good authority that people who read these pages might think, "Oh, gosh, what a whiny bitch"—if that's you,
remember the motto for the rest of the site; if you DON'T LIKE IT, then DON'T FUCKING READ IT!

Feel free to look through my special books now, and don't forget to smile. ^^